Finally.

i've finished reading the long awaited Twilight sequel: New Moon.

Bf bought for me this book last Saturday.

i went to many different Bookstores in Singapore and

couldn't find it.

It was surprising that he called and told me he bought it.

He found it a bookstore in ChangiAirport.

nearby his workplace.

"Thank u Sayang!"

Now: im on a mission searching for "ECLIPSE".

New Moon.

Its as good as Twilight.

I really wanted to cry when in this book,

Edward Cullen left Isabella Swan since he was worried about her safety.

But.

Bella never stopped loving Edward.

Neither did Edward.

i really shouldn't spill it all.

So people: this is a book worth reading.

You can easily finish it in a few days!

=P

I found out something though.

The Author, Stephenie Meyer.

loves MUSE as much as i do.

maybe more!

MUSE rocks.

not just because its part of the Twilight Saga.

But their music is really good.

i want to get hold on Eclipse. now!

-gf

i feel like crap at this point of time.

Somehow i think that Bf is still upset with me.

i do wonder at times if i really am a harsh person.

i share my views the way it should be.

in my own opnion at least.

"Sayang, im sorry if what i meant to say

came out too harsh."

i love you.

at times, only when i've said the stupidest things,

only then i realise how stupid that was.

280109.

DatabaseFundamentals Common Test.

I thought that i could at least passed it.

everything i concentrated on, came out.

not sure if the way i wrote the answers down,

was the same as those i could recall from my notes..?

a pass at least.

only 4 more papers to sit for.

im so stressed.

& i go to food as comfort.

i know its bad.

and i do see myself gaining weight.

but.

there's nothing else which can distract me.

when was the last time i exercise?

maybe should start soon.

i feel fat and ugly.

i should get a pair of running shoes.

-gf

Hey!! I’m back. This is going to be my 3rd post. Let me see… hmm…

26th January 2009

I was supposed to wake up at 0700hrs instead, I woke up at 0800hrs. Damn I was late but, it was so early in the morning. Who the heck want to wake up that early? It’s even public holidays!! NO SCHOOLING!! I should still be continuing my sleep till late afternoon. Yet, I have to go to work. Grr … Even I was late, I was still lying dead on my bed. Damn it was so comfortable. My soft bed and my Bantal Busuk ( Favorite Pillow ).
Wahhh… it was so comfy even my whole body keeps telling me to just lie there and rest. I Force myself to stand and got myself ready for work.

I called my office and inform them that I would be slightly late. I arrive at my work place at 1000hrs. Good thing it was not busy. In fact, the restaurant was still empty hence also; the whole environment in Singapore Changi Airport was very quiet. Work my way out from 1000 – 2100hrs.

Well, it was Chinese New Year. As I expected, it’s going to be a hell day for me. The restaurant was packed with customer. Mainly, they come in family groups of 8 or 12. Well good news is that, sales were $$$$. Make about almost 4K. So I went back home tired but a smile to my face as for the day and tomorrow as there’s extra $1.50 per hour. Can’t wait to get my pay.

27th January 2009

Woke up late again. As usual I called my outlet and inform them that I would be slightly late. I arrive at my work place at 1000hrs... Start off the 2nd day of Chinese New Year. I got a request from my dad to make for him breakfast. So I make for him hot mocha and ask him to try out White Chocolate Macadamia cake. The respond he gave was: SUPERB!! Hehe … Now, back to work. Busy Busy Busy... Do all the cleaning. Crowd was normal but things start to go slow when it was about 2000hrs. Perhaps the following day, most people should start back their work. Extend my time till 2300hrs. Damn I was exhausted. Who wont be as I work from 1000 – 2300hrs. Went back home with a bad mood. Had a quarrel with my girlfriend so I decided to wash up when I reached home and have my early rest.

28th January 2009

Woke Up Fresh. Slept like a baby. Hehe... Well today is a Special Day. Today is my dad’s Birthday. Happy Birthday Dad. Love You A lot. You the Best Dad Ever. Thanks for your guidance of all this years. Damn I feel so dump. Can’t get for my dad anything yet. My pockets are dry empty. I should have saved up my money earlier on. Make a Call at My work place to place an order White Chocolate Macadamia whole Cake which is to be collected on the 1st of February 2009 Sunday. Have my school stuff packed and my uniform iron.

Went out from my house at 11am in the morning. School start at 1100 – 1700hrs.Today at school, it was slightly stress. Things start to get pressure as the date line to pass in the case studies draws near. The date line would be on the 6th of February 2009. Me, Dominick and Teng feng crack our brains just to complete our work. Next week also, I got a phase test. So many things I need to do. Revision, do my notes and some touch up with my Packet Tracer. Arhhhhhh!!!!!

During Sports and wellness, had a test. Took about ½ an hour to complete it. After that, our instructor let us go early. Time was around 1500hrs. Had lunch with Dominick and Teng Feng. Suppose to have revision after that but we were too lazy to do revision after we had a heavy meal.

About me and my girlfriend situation, it’s normal again. Had a chat with her for a while before she goes for her exam.

( Good Luck Sayang… Remember to stay focus and stay calm. Just do your best. No matter what, I’m always here to support you. I Love You so Much!! I Miss You Dearly)

Promise her to pick her up after school and have dinner with me but there was a change of plan. My dad decides to take the whole family out for dinner to have a birthday feast. Later that evening, some how, it was cancel. The whole family will be celebrating my dad’s birthday on the 1st February 2009 Sunday. The plan was to have lunch at swensen’s first follow up by having the cake at home.

At Night around 2100hrs, there I was typing my way on this blog. Have a chat with my Sayang but eventually, we had a quarrel again. Kind of upset about the whole thing but different people has their own views. So, I won’t say much about it.

Sayang, I’m Sorry if I were too harsh on you. Sometimes it’s hard to understand people situation. Life is getting complicated these days. What I’m going through now may cause unnecessary argument but I need you to understand and bear with me for a while. There are times I really really need you by my side when at times I’m down but I do also understand that you have projects and exams coming up. Sometimes, it’s hard for me to express it out to you. I don’t want your studies to be affected because of me. So, don’t worry too much sayang… just take care of yourself. Ill guide you all the way. No matter what happen, I Always Love you… That will never change.

Lu Ayy Darussalam

Your Favourite Picture Of All me. : )

I Love You Sayang. That Will Never Change

My 2nd Post Done By Your Beloved BF ; )

It's been quite a while. The last time I ever type out my post was last year. Even that also, it was my very first post on this blog. Hehe … hehe … Well, all this time, my girl been doing all the updating for me. I’m sure some of you took an initiative to read some of her post. Well mainly were about her school, friends or family and also some of the moments when we went out to spent time together outside.

Well, to be honest, I got a scolding by my girl today for not updating this blog again. It’s been countless of time she been nagging at me. Lately, I was busy. Tones of school project, school work, working long hours at my part time job and sleeping. Blah Blah Blah … I can go on with all my excuses. The best word to describe about my life is lazy and full of crappy reasons.

Yup!! Blogging is not my type even though it was my idea to create a blog for me and my girl. It was like a love diary. Every moment, every second is the time we cherish together but, I’m the only one who is not contributing. Ok Ok Ok … Let’s get serious. Sayang.. I’m sorry if I been a lazy boyfriend. Ill try my best to update our blog ok. Even if it’s just a post or two, one post is really considered special and meaningful you know. Hehe hehe …

Ok ok ok … Well to summaries from last year till now, that’s quite a lot to type in. Hence also, tomorrow, I’m working at 9am. Time now is already 0140am. I should be sleeping right now. Ill make it fast. Hmm where should I begin? Well, like what an old folks usually says, if you stuck, best is you restart fresh and try all over again.

Well, it’s been 6 month plus I been with my dearly beloved girlfriend. She is the best thing ever happen in my life. It’s been peace to my soul. Life’s been great, full of happiness and joy. We spent our time close; we share our problems, we cry or joke around and also face difficult obstacles together. Even though there are times we quarrel, deep in our hearts, we still love each other. It’s funny if I were to think back time when I first get to know her. Thanks To IT inovation, our destiny reunites us. Well that’s all for today. I’m very sleepy right now. Perhaps next time when I’m free, ill add in more post.

By the way sayang, I know u been busy lately. Please do take care of yourself. Have your regular meal and early sleep. I don’t want you to fall sick when your exam comes. Ill wait for you. Seriously, it’s been lonely without you at my very own sight. It’s been a long time since the last time we spent our time together. Well don’t worry about me sayang. Ill wait for you. Good Night Sayang. Sweet Dreams. Muak!!

~ Lu Ayy Darussalam ( 2008 ) ~

A drawing which resembles of me. Drawn by Nur Fazilah

Drawn on the : 5th August 2008

Note: I Love You Sayang. That, will never change. It will remain forever and ever in my heart.

1,2 - 1 2 3 4

give me more lovin then i’ve ever had.

make it all better when i’m feelin sad.

tell me that i’m special even when i know i’m not.

make me feel good when i hurt so bad.

barely gettin mad, im so glad i found you.

i love bein around you.

you make it easy, as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)

theres only one thing

two do

three words

four you.

i love you.(i love you)

theres only one way

two say

those three words

and that’s what i’ll do.

i love you.(i love you)

give me more lovin from the very start.

piece me back together when i fall apart.

tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.

make me feel good when i hurt so bad.

best that i’ve had.

im so glad that i found you.

i love bein around you.

you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)

theres only one thing

two do

three words

four you.

i love you.(i love you)

theres only one way

two say

those three words

and that’s what i’ll do.

i love you.i love you(i love you)

you make it easy,

its easy as 1234

theres only one thing

two do

three words

four you

i love you (i love you)

theres only one way

two say

those three words

thats what ill do i love you (i love you)

i love you i love you.

one two three four

i love you.(iloveyou)

i love you(i love you)

Plain White T's - 1 2 3 4

Been listening to this song again and again.

I love it.

Its exactly what i want to say to Lu Ayy.

Im sorry im quite neglecting us.

I know u understand how i am right now.

That makes me love you even more.

Can't wait to destroy Nana's kitchen tomorrow.

-gf

Did this last night.

Something's wrong with Photoshop's brush.

Turned out alright?

Anyhow.

In Library right now.

Its been almost 4 hours.

Must finish MS access & .java

Had to cancel date with Bf.

Haven't been spending quality time with him.

The last time i had a good chat with him was,

can't remember when.

Late night phone calls.

Always one of us is tired.

So, had to hang up.

But Bf, i'll meet u up soon.

Bear with me for these few weeks.

I need to get myself through exams,

and im with you.

Wow.

Butt hurts.

My plans for upcoming weeks.

Sat - Over @ Nana's.

Night - revision for Database Fundamentals.

Sun - Family.

Night - revision for Database Fundamentals.

Mon - Over @ Nana's. (0_0)!!

Night - revision for Database Fundamentals.

Tue -

whole day of DATABASE FUNDAMENTALS!

when will i see Love again?

"i miss you sayang."

-gf

i love this song.
my ultimate favourite song by MUSE.

Endlessly.

there's a part in me you'll never know
the only thing I'll never show

hopelessly I'll love you endlessly
hopelessly I'll give you everything
but I won't give you up
I won't let you down
and I won't leave you falling
If the moment ever comes

It's plain to see it's trying to speak
cherished dreams forever asleep

hopelessly I'll love you endlessly
hopelessly I'll give you everything
but I won't give you up
I won't let you down

and I won't leave you falling

if the moment ever comes


hopelessly I'll love you endlessly
hopelessly I'll give you everything
but I won't give you up
I won't let you down
and I won't leave you falling
but the moment never comes

i want to apologise to boyfriend.

Lately we've been playing this game called,

"Who gives the most missed calls"

*sarcasm*

Well, i've always been forgetting to switch my phone

back to ringing mode after class.

So, when Bf really needed me,

i wasn't there.

I'm sorry Sayang.

i want you to know im always here for you.

As usual, Bf always forgives me.

But it keep occuring that even i feel stupid.

i'm sorry.

and yes!

Rahmah and I are going Vietnam in March.

Well, Vietnam... erm______

at least it is something.

Still feeling bad Sya can't come along.

"try asking ur parents again ya???".

Before holiday.

Must give it my all for common tests & exams.

Promise.

A promise to no one else.

Just me.

-gf

a random thought came into my mind.


i am afraid.
to lose anything i have right now.
be it my studies,or my loved ones.

Talked to an old friend.
He asked me what was my definition of life.
i told him, in my life, i must have a purpose.
Be it the dream im chasing or even for the person i love.
If i lose my purpose, i don't see a need to live.

My studies.
Im rushing out all i could...cracking my brains...on projects.
less than 2 weeks, will be my 'Common Tests'.
then in Feb, Examinations.
eventhough its difficult, i can't stop now.
*"keep going"*

My loved ones.

My family.
always here with me.

i come home looking forward to being disturbed by Hykel's annoyance.
I'll get angry, but thats the fun part.
He'll try all his might to make me feel better.

Another "thing" which makes me wanna reach home ASAP,
is my baby niece.

Erika.
her giggles makes me laugh.

My sister.
She does most of the housework now.
Having her makes me feel i have someone to look up to.

My Beloved mum.
A very tired woman.
But, when she brings home food, for her children,i can see satisfaction in her eyes.
A whole day's of hard work, was all worth while.

My dad & BigBro.
Not always near.
But just one call away.
There when trouble comes.

Though my family isn't "together-together", we are together.

My Friends.
BFFs.
Though we don't meet up often, i know they are okay.
never will i forget the times we had & more times we'll share.
'im sorry i have to cancel dates.'
hope you'll understand.

MyFriendsAllOverThePlace.
Some are in contact,
but i see how each one of them made an impact in my life.
i hope we'll meet soon.

PolyMates.
with them for quite a while now.
Assignments, Projects... we do it all together.
i'm glad we're friends.& i hope it won't stop.
Thank u for all ur help be it in school, or all the crazy moments.

MyBoyfriend.
Lu Ayy Darussalam.he is sick lately.
it scares me.
just hearing him cough, breathing too quickly,
i feel helpless not able to help him.
but sayang.id pray u'll get well.
ASAP.
InsyaAllah.
You were there when i cried.
u came to my rescue when i felt sick.
u were my shoulder when i was crying.
thank u.
for all the love u gave me.
i love you.

this isn't the end of it.
i'll cherish what i have.
i'll embrace my future.
Hope all will be with me.

Don't leave.

-gf

am in the library right now.

140109

wasn't a good day for me.

alot in my head that i broke down.

Bf is sick.

He came by to have dinner with me.

He lost his voice.

I still can't figure out how that happened.

Along the way to central for dinner,

as Bf wanted to talk to me,

he had to write it down.

Apparently our sign language isn't good.

Seeing him just made me forget about school.

at ease.

Had laksa for dinner.

The gravy splattered here & there on his Jacket.

Sorry.

Bf ate Fishball noodles.

Ermm.

He only ate a bit of the noodles.

Too difficult to swallow.

Looking at him eat, hurts.

Every spoonful take minutes to get through his throat.

I love u syg.

Get well soon.

I have loads to do.

Help me!?

A trip to Vietnam in March.

Should i go?

Exam results coming out on 17 March 2009.

well.

i'd see how.

-gf

Weekends.

Didn't get to go to Treetop as planned.

Had to go to the Airport.

Bf accompanied me.

We then went to Clarke Quay.

The 'Central' shopping mall is superbly confusing.

Wanted to shop for new shoes,

Bf ended up buying a new Bag.

His precious.

We headed down to Harbourfront for lunch.

Western.

Chicken Chop.

Went into VivoCity.

Survey-Survey-Survey for shoes.

Ended up with Everlast.

I'm lovin it.

Sunday:

I had Flu.

Both Bf and BFFs said i sounded like a Guy!

Bf did the sweetest thing!

around 2100++ hours.

"knock-knock-Knock"-in on the door.

Bf!

He immediately touched my forehead.

He checked if i was down with fever.

He gave me:

-Panadols

-Vicks

-His WindBreaker Jacket

-Flu medication

-2 Bottles of cooling water.

I was so touched.

Even wanted to hugg him!!

but can't.

"thank u sayang for everything."

"muacks-muacks!"

-gf

080109

NYP open house 2009.

The pictures above says it all.

Yupp.

Taufik Batisah.

Came to NYP!

i went GAGA over him.

He sang a few songs.

His fav: Nafasku.

I love his smile.

He winked!

He stand directly straight from where i was.

i wished! he winked at me!

=P

& sya + rahmah was *melting too*

Well, someone else came to NYP too.

Lu Ayy Darussalam.

Definitely i was GAGA over him too.

He looked good with his short-er hair.

Sayang, Happy 5th month anniversary.

i love u.

will celebrate it this sat ya?.

"no matter what happens, i'll love u"

-gf

070108

Professional Image presentation.

quite uncomfy wearing it coz' had to regularly check my attire.

TUCK IN SHIRT.

but, i guess it went well?

One more til' the end of Communication Skills.

About three things i was absolutely positive.

First, Edward was a vampire.

Second, there was a part of him - and I didn't know how dominant that part

might be - that thirsted for my blood.

And Third, i was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him.

it took me 3days to finish Twilight.

the book is awesome.

to me, the book is better than the movie.

how the characters were described, the scenes, the feelings and it was all so seductive.

i admit.

i was in my own world when 'twilight' was in my palm.

i ignore my surroundings only paying full attention to what the book says.

its wonderful setting of an average girl, falling in love with a vampire.

and both human and vampire can't bear to be apart from each other.

As much as Edward Cullen (vampire) wanted Bella to be safe without him,

he himself can't resist the love he feels for Bella.

Bella too didn't mind the fact that she may die anytime now that her world revolves

around vampires.

Bella was even ready to give up her human life.

To be a vampire so as to be with Edward.

Forever.

i do recommend everyone to read this book.

im gonna buy the sequel soon: New Moon.

-gf

my first post in 2009.

2008 was quite a year.

good and bad times.

experienced poly.

im loving it.

lost and gained a laptop.

i learned how to appreciate.

new contacts.

made friends.

found love.

i love him.

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resolutions still remain the same as previous years.

exercise?

maintain relationships.

keep friendships.

"happy January people"

-gf