Hi to all..

Time now is 0637am in the morning... Going for jogging after this. Need to start back my training. hahaha ... i wonder if my stamina have really gone. Well today, I'm going for my bike revision today at Ubi.. later after that, no plans to go anywhere... Hmm.. this week I'm working from Tuesday - Thursday from 1000 - 2300. hmm .. should be fine i guess.. This week, i better start resting as next week, I'm going all out. My aim for next month, get myself a new camera... Then, i can snipe my target. hehe ... I'm planning to sell off my PSP, Mobile Phone and Digi Camera. Hayoo.. so many things in mind.. Got to clear thing off asap.. Ok for now.. toodles..

Good Morning... Time now is 0702am in the Morning.. Yawn.. Cant Sleep. having difficulty in breathing. Damn It!! Now, Going to buy breakfast and buy some hot tea while reading my morning papers.. like uncle 2 ha ha.. who cares... This morning plan... hmm.. clean up my messy room. This afternoon, may be chill out at east Coast park all the way till Sunday morning. Hehe.. thats all for now.. yawn...

Time now is 1205am. Just reached home from work. Damn!! I'm so freaking tired.. Imagine yourself working for 13hours from Monday - Thursday. My legs are aching.. Weather outside is scary.. Winds are blowing in different direction hence also the sound of the wind is so.. eriee.. Well, life been great. Had fun at work. Joke around with hannah, dah and orven. Today's target was suppose to be 1.5K but 1.3K is good enough. Wahhh... So sleepy.. Time 4 me to crash to bed.. Toddles to all readers..

Greetings to all. Its been a long time i post out my blog. A lot of things happen along the way. Life's getting more tougher and tougher. Been handling depression for the last few weeks after a break up with the one i love the most. Life wasn't the same after her lost. Had a tough time with my life, health, and also making important decision for my future. Break down time to time wondering whats next for me. After awhile thinking all over, reflecting about my past, i decided to move on and start everything new. Have a new goal in life and start everything fresh.. To Be Continue

finally.

first post since im back from Vietnam.

i was so tired.

2days of only 1 hour of Sleep.

Missed Lu Ayy.

Missed Family.

Though.

Had great Fun at HoChiMinh.

Especially with 'Anak Wannabes'.

I don't know how that came about.

But.

It just did between my convo with Rahmah.

To AnakWannabes:

"thank you for making my first trip out of Sg,

other than M'sia.

An unforgettable one. and im so happy

i met u guys.

Thanks for looking out for me + see you all soon k."

Pictures are on Facebook.

HAPPY 7th MONTH!

i love you syg.

thank you for everything.

ur concern.

understanding.

help.

advices.

& most of all love.

which i think you gave more to me than i did in return.

muacks.

& please.

"do not be paranoid.

trust ur heart."

to many more anniversaries.

Cheers.

iloveyou.

-gf

~ Saturday ~

* Talk to my baby in the afternoon. Wow… I guess she was very tired.
* Clean up my room all afternoon.
* It was raining heavily. Took an Afternoon Nap
* Sayang Got birthday party With Her relatives at Pasir Ris
* In the evening, Went for a jog with my buddy Wei Long.
* Wish My baby Happy 7th Month of Anniversary At 1200 In The Morning

~ Sunday ~



My Wish for Her:

I just want you to know that nothing in this world could ever be as wonderful as the love you’ve given me.Your love makes my days so very bright, just knowing you're my darling Sayang.
Happy 7th Month Anniversary Sayang… I Love You for eternity.

* Today woke up, do some house cleaning
* At 1600hrs, meet up with saying. Yahoo!!
* Plan, have a dinner with her andd spent our time together outside.

To Be Continue…

~ Thursday ~

After I done updating my blog, I start off with my case study. Read through all the requirements. Crack my brain here and there. Look out for resources. Finally around 1100am in the morning, my case study was finally done. Yahoo!!! Now for printing but then, another problem occurs. My Printer apparently ran out of ink. No choice, I have to travel down to Pasir Ris to get a HP Photosmart C5280 ink from Challenger. Well if u ask, why I never go down to Simei instead, basically it’s so troublesome to transfer 2 Buses just to get myself to East Point. By then, the whole process is going to take an hour plus. Well The Easiest way is to Pasir Ris. It just took me 30 – 45 minutes with jus any available Bus. Problem Solve.

Reached home around 12pm. Start printing all my paper works. By 1400hrs, I make my way over to school. That very morning, I’m suppose to have classes but that particular class is for those who have not finish up their case study. Well I negotiate with my lecturer so that I can finish off all my work at home. He agrees to meet up with me at 1400hrs for my case study and also my Class Test 1. That afternoon, traffic was jam. Road be reconstruct due to some installation to the electrical line. Stuck in the middle of traffic for about 15minutes.

Reached School at about 1500hrs. My Lecturer was unhappy because I was late. Well it wasn’t on purpose. Explain to him my reasons and move on with my Class Test 1.
By 1615, I’m off. Now, make my way to the home saloon. Have my hair Cut. Later that afternoon, I plan with Wei Long to have a study group.

At around 1745, I reached Home. Tired and hungry, I have a short rest. Just then, I receive a call from my outlet. Apparently, to my horror, I got to find out that the person who’s supposed to cover me didn’t turn up. That’s not all, I was also inform that she cant cover me. I tried to make calls ask someone else to cover me. but no one is available. Frustrated and full of anger, I got myself ready for work. Damn it was ridiculous. Tomorrow I’m having 2 tests yet here I am going to work. I totally flip out. On My way to work, I managed to read up some of my notes given.

Reached at my work about 1835. With a heavy heart to move around or even to put even a smile on my face, I punch in my card. Set myself ready. Just then, my buddy inform me that my manager allow me to go back. I double checked with my manager and have his approval. Damn I was so relief. I ran off back home immediately. Recall Wei Long after the cancellation of the study group.

To Calvin:

Thank you so much for understanding my situation. U the best Manager… Surely, next time, ill get a replacement for real if I have something on.

To Farid

Brother, u the man. U safe me from my downfall. How can I repay u?
Note: No Money $$$
So, ill cover you at 10am in the morning this coming Monday till closing.

That evening, I went through all the wireless notes with Wei Long + in addition, Wany.
Both went back home early accept me all the way with the revision till morning.



~ Friday ~

Met Up With Weilong And Randy At 0730am under Wei Long Block. Hop on a ride with Wei Long car. Reached school just nice around 0800am. Waited over an hour. To our surprise, lesson starts only at 9am. Damn… But I continue on with my revision.

At 0930am, Wireless Class Test Commence. Damn almost all the paper I read and memorized, dint came out. So… piss off... End My Paper at 1015am. We celebrate with our lecturer for the very last time. It was farewell for us. After all the ups and down, finally, graduation. It’s not an official date. Official date would be in April. For the time being, I’m free all the way... Now, what’s a waiting for me is my National Service. Haiz… We Laugh, Cry, Snap here and there. It was a moment of farewell ;… (
At 12pm, we make our way home. Some Have Lunch Together, others have plans. Speaking about plans, My Sayang Is Coming Back Home Today. Yahoo… I Miss Her So Much... I was lonely without her. Check her flight from the web. GA 869 Garuda Indonesia Estimate time of Arrival is at 1640. Went back home first to have my rest.

At 1615, have My cloth’s iron. Nice and sharp. I ensure myself to wear my best so that I can greet my Sayang with warm welcome. Thought of buying her flowers but it was already late. So, I took a cab to airport. Reached there on time. Just then, My Sayang father came by follow by her sister. It was unexpected. Thought of bringing her to Secret Recipe. Well, some plans can expect to work all the time. So, I kept my cool… Just go with the flow…

Finally, she appears. My Sayang have return safely. Thank God… What a Relief. She had a family warm welcome. So sweet. Had a talk with my Sayang. She bought for me a T-Shirt. I love it. Thanks Sayang. She told me she haven’t had a proper sleep. Well as for now, I ask her to have a rest first as soon as she come back home.

After all the hugs and kisses, we make our way to burger king at Terminal 2. Over There, we all chatted along. She distributes us all the stuff she had bought over at Vietnam. Along the way, her sister mention about the eclipse and braking dawn
Book. Apparently, my sayang and her sister been looking around for these two books almost all over Singapore but looks like I found it for them. I saw this book last week at terminal 3 Book Shop. Thought of buying them for sayang but I guess ill wait till she come back.

Me And Sayang head down to the money changer to change some of the balance currency she had left. Then, we make our way to the book stall. We found the eclipse book but the breaking dawn was no where to be found. I ask one of the staff to check on the other outlet at terminal 3. Lucky us, they have it. So We reserve one and head back to the burger king first before we head down to Terminal 3. Along the way to Terminal 3, Me And Sayang had a talk. She told me about her Vietnam trip. Geeze... Kind of messy over there as rules is not being applied by the people. But I was relief as Sayang was ok. I hold on tight to her. I Miss her so much… After a long wait, I was over joy to see her again. We were having a moment of our time till she pop up something which gave me a fright. It was so unexpected!!

She even told me about this guy who ask her if she’s Single or not. I was like Freak Out!! Then she told the guy that she’s attached. The guy said to her that she don't look like she's attached. When she asks him back, apparently, he was single. My mind gone haywire. Damn I was scared to death but I keep my cool. I don’t want to be paranoid but just keep thinking positively.

Seriously, it gave me all the chills to my veins. I just freeze. I hope i can recover from this throma as soon as possible. Damn it !! Haiz...

Note to All: She’s mine… If You Want Her, You have To Go through Me First.
Grrr… Ill fight for her what ever it takes even if I have to loose my life.

Over at terminal 3, I bought the book that she's been looking for. She was happy to have all the series. I was glad to see the smile again. Next stop, we head down to Sports link. I bought for her a pair of Nike Running Shoes. In 2 Weeks time, ill start on my training with her. We probably be doing a lot of exercise to shape up our body and stamina. With a reasonable price at $80++, in addition of No GST + Staff Discount. Total spent for the shoes was $61++ Very reasonable buy.
After that, we both head down to Secret Recipe. Thought of buying a slice of cake for her dad. Take it as a gesture of good term relationship with the family. Lol…

At around 1900hrs. We head home. Her dad sent us off to Tanah Merah Interchange. We head down to Tampines to meet up with her mum. Say hi to her mum and after that, I head back home. Even though I didn’t get to spend much time with my Sayang, what matter the most, she return to me safely. I’m also happy to see her that she enjoy her trip. Now next event for her is the school camp which is next week. Hayaa... Well that’s all for now.


Good Night Sayang... I Love You Forever and Always Baby... Mucks!!

~ Monday ~

* School from 1000 - 1200 ( Phase Test 2 )
* Screw Up A bit In My Practical Test
* Test Over

Next Thing To Be Done ASAP!!
- Case Study
- CCNA 4 Test
- Wireless Test

Arhh So Stress!!

Later in the afternoon, ill be working from 1700-2300
- Went Back Home. So Tired...
- Talk To GF
- Tomorrow Girlfriend Flying Off To Vietnam. So Sad...

Talk to her a bit longer + almost quarrel coz I ask a lot of question. Who won’t as ill be
seeing her father for the very first time. Scary... Hence also I was so concern about her well being. Well, she's the kind of person who never takes notice of her surroundings especially crossing the road. Grr... Kind of sad to sent her off tomorrow. Love Her so much. Well I didn’t show my emotion towards her as she would be very worried about me. Kept my cool till she flies off. That’s the plan for tomorrow. All I wanted was to let her enjoy her trip and relax. She deserve it after all the stress she went through.

FYI: This will be her first time taking a flight. ( Garuda Indonesia GA868 ) I repeat. Garuda Indonesia!! An Airline with the worst Safety Record. That’s what I read so far on the web. That’s so comforting … But since the flight is leaving from Singapore, I’m sure everything would be just fine.

About the bad safety record, that’s about years ago. I’m sure the airline has grown. I love Garuda Indonesia Airline. Love Its Logo. Cool…

Picture From: http://www.airliners.net/







~ Tuesday ~

* Didn’t get to sleep, Restless, and can’t even concentrate in my studies
* Battery Charged, Cloths Iron and ready To Go.

Left home at about 0645 in the morning. I’m supposed to meet her at 9am but just in case if she could come early. I hope!! Reach Changi Airport Terminal 3. Went Straight To Secret Recipe. Have a chat with Iskandar. At about 9am, Girlfriend call. She was about to reached the airport. Make my move to Terminal 1. Now, the moment of fear. Meeting the father. Damn, my stomach got sick. Mind start to think negatively. Well as plan, I keep my cool.

At Terminal 1, met her family, say hi to her dad and do some simple introduction. I was very nervous. My voice becomes squeaky. The place was crowded. There we were shaking hands as if it was a new beginning of a treaty. Hehe… In the end, everything turns out well. Snap some pictures. Around 10+ her group went to the check in counter to get their boarding pass. At around 10.35. She went in. We didn’t say much to each other. I didn’t even look straight to her eyes. The only thing I said to her was take care and I love you.

Families wave at their loves one. Before I make my way home, greet my girlfriend parents. Her dad reminds me: Ensure that ill be good with her daughter. In return, I node as a sign of an agreement… Went back to Secret Recipe to have breakfast alone with a heavy heart. There She Goes… Tears run down my cheek as I walk to the sky train. Took a bus home. The skies were dark and it was raining heavily. Even the skies were crying. Haiz…

Went home and changed to my school uniform. Went to school after that. +++
No Mood To Continue…







~ Wednesday ~

I didn’t have my sleep, My Internet start to have problems. Everything was slow. I got frustrated, pressure and stress. With no one to look upon, I remain calm. I call linksys helpline provider to ask for assistant. Do all the troubleshooting all night. Event it was already in the morning, still no luck. In The end, I didn’t go to school. I decided then to continue on with my case study. I ask Wei Long for Guidance. Later that evening, we went to Secret Recipe for Dinner. I Had Irish Lamb Stew, Mushroom soup and V.Hazel Special Drink where else Wei long had Ice Chocolate, Ice Lemon Tea, Grilled Chicken With Mushroom Sauce, Mushroom Soup and White Chocolate macadamia. We were full to the Max. Later, he sent me off home before he make a detour to meet up with his friends for supper.
Upon reaching home, I had my rest and continue on with my revision + case study. Before that, update my blog... That’s all for now..

I wonder how my Sayang is doing. I miss her so much. I Love You Sayang...
No matter where u are, I always think of you. My body is so restless. Can’t wait to see u.
Arhh!!! ;… (

Communication Skills.
Common Test.

1400-1530 hours.
i handed up my paper at around 1450?
The paper was okay.
i still don't understand why theres a need to have tests for CS.

Anyhow.
Didn't meet Bf in school as intended.
He was late.
& im sorry i couldn't wait.

Its his birthday tomorrow.
Let me give an advance wish:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
"semoga Tuhan panjangkan umur, murahkan rezeki. Amin."

i have some "goodies" planned up.
just hope he likes it.

& i think i have a problem with handphones.
i can't seem to pick up calls at the right moment.
Bf called and i didn't pick up.
At times when he needed me, i can't feel the phone's vibe.
& when im expecting a call, i feel vibes.
But the phone isn't ringing.

is it my fault then? yes.
i hope Bf isn't still angry.
well, at least not tomorrow.


-orange

Bf was my hero.

Reason:

when im was really afraid.

He told me to just look at him.

& i know when i looked into his eyes, im gonna be okay.

all's well, ends well.

Thank u for saving me.

-gf

31012009

watched Underworld: Rise of the Lycans.

with bf @ AMK.

Reason:

the nearest cinema.

Since our 'hiking' date didnt turn out well.

Initially, wanted to go MacRitchie.

HSBC Treetop walk.

When we got there,

everything seems normal.

Canoes.

Huge Reservoir.

People.

i was excited.

Snap-snap-snap.

here and there.

There was a sign which shows:

HSBC Treetop Walk : 4.4km.

ok.

at the entrance.

Monkeys.

little monkeys.

Loads of them.

i was so afraid i wanted to pee.

& Bf wanted to go on.

But he let me have the final say cause i was shaking.

& i turned pale.

"im not very animal-friendly"

So, going on a trail.

on more than 4km.

With no park Rangers.

& monkeys everywhere.

+ animals which u won't be sure will pop up anytime.

S-C-A-R-Y.

Bf's plan was to find another route.

We were able to.

But when we started to walk inside the forest.

i was holding on to him.

& we were on a trail which i'm not even sure if it was a trail.

Then i told Bf, i was afraid & i don't think i can move on.

So, due to my coward-ness.

& Bf's disappointment,

we ended up on a mini jetty.

To have lunch.

Bf wasn't angry at all.

He just said,

'maybe it'd be better if we come in a group next time'

i wasn't sure if i would go again.

=P

Sat down.

Ate Hotdogs which we made.

Garlic & Cheese.

Moments later,..

Bf said:

'sounds like monkeys..'

Yes.

it was monkeys.

at the entrance of the jetty.

i panic.

packed everything in my bag.

& Bf saw something beneath the the walkway.

it was a snake.

the monkeys actually wanted to warn us about it.

i think?`

i ran out of that place.

Bf said the snake was quite a dangerous one.

Which will strangle a human slowly,

break your bones.

& then eat em' up.

i couldn't imagine what would've happen if we still lingered there.

i never want to go there again. EVER.

On a brighter note.

We watched a movie.

So exciting!

Underworld: Rise of the Lycans.

Its dark.

& yes.

i think im hooked on movies with vampires and werewolves.

compared to Twilight, Underworld is way darker.

Truly, the vamps looked scarier.

its a good, must-watch movie!

i love fangs and pale skin.

-gf

Finally.

i've finished reading the long awaited Twilight sequel: New Moon.

Bf bought for me this book last Saturday.

i went to many different Bookstores in Singapore and

couldn't find it.

It was surprising that he called and told me he bought it.

He found it a bookstore in ChangiAirport.

nearby his workplace.

"Thank u Sayang!"

Now: im on a mission searching for "ECLIPSE".

New Moon.

Its as good as Twilight.

I really wanted to cry when in this book,

Edward Cullen left Isabella Swan since he was worried about her safety.

But.

Bella never stopped loving Edward.

Neither did Edward.

i really shouldn't spill it all.

So people: this is a book worth reading.

You can easily finish it in a few days!

=P

I found out something though.

The Author, Stephenie Meyer.

loves MUSE as much as i do.

maybe more!

MUSE rocks.

not just because its part of the Twilight Saga.

But their music is really good.

i want to get hold on Eclipse. now!

-gf

i feel like crap at this point of time.

Somehow i think that Bf is still upset with me.

i do wonder at times if i really am a harsh person.

i share my views the way it should be.

in my own opnion at least.

"Sayang, im sorry if what i meant to say

came out too harsh."

i love you.

at times, only when i've said the stupidest things,

only then i realise how stupid that was.

280109.

DatabaseFundamentals Common Test.

I thought that i could at least passed it.

everything i concentrated on, came out.

not sure if the way i wrote the answers down,

was the same as those i could recall from my notes..?

a pass at least.

only 4 more papers to sit for.

im so stressed.

& i go to food as comfort.

i know its bad.

and i do see myself gaining weight.

but.

there's nothing else which can distract me.

when was the last time i exercise?

maybe should start soon.

i feel fat and ugly.

i should get a pair of running shoes.

-gf

Hey!! I’m back. This is going to be my 3rd post. Let me see… hmm…

26th January 2009

I was supposed to wake up at 0700hrs instead, I woke up at 0800hrs. Damn I was late but, it was so early in the morning. Who the heck want to wake up that early? It’s even public holidays!! NO SCHOOLING!! I should still be continuing my sleep till late afternoon. Yet, I have to go to work. Grr … Even I was late, I was still lying dead on my bed. Damn it was so comfortable. My soft bed and my Bantal Busuk ( Favorite Pillow ).
Wahhh… it was so comfy even my whole body keeps telling me to just lie there and rest. I Force myself to stand and got myself ready for work.

I called my office and inform them that I would be slightly late. I arrive at my work place at 1000hrs. Good thing it was not busy. In fact, the restaurant was still empty hence also; the whole environment in Singapore Changi Airport was very quiet. Work my way out from 1000 – 2100hrs.

Well, it was Chinese New Year. As I expected, it’s going to be a hell day for me. The restaurant was packed with customer. Mainly, they come in family groups of 8 or 12. Well good news is that, sales were $$$$. Make about almost 4K. So I went back home tired but a smile to my face as for the day and tomorrow as there’s extra $1.50 per hour. Can’t wait to get my pay.

27th January 2009

Woke up late again. As usual I called my outlet and inform them that I would be slightly late. I arrive at my work place at 1000hrs... Start off the 2nd day of Chinese New Year. I got a request from my dad to make for him breakfast. So I make for him hot mocha and ask him to try out White Chocolate Macadamia cake. The respond he gave was: SUPERB!! Hehe … Now, back to work. Busy Busy Busy... Do all the cleaning. Crowd was normal but things start to go slow when it was about 2000hrs. Perhaps the following day, most people should start back their work. Extend my time till 2300hrs. Damn I was exhausted. Who wont be as I work from 1000 – 2300hrs. Went back home with a bad mood. Had a quarrel with my girlfriend so I decided to wash up when I reached home and have my early rest.

28th January 2009

Woke Up Fresh. Slept like a baby. Hehe... Well today is a Special Day. Today is my dad’s Birthday. Happy Birthday Dad. Love You A lot. You the Best Dad Ever. Thanks for your guidance of all this years. Damn I feel so dump. Can’t get for my dad anything yet. My pockets are dry empty. I should have saved up my money earlier on. Make a Call at My work place to place an order White Chocolate Macadamia whole Cake which is to be collected on the 1st of February 2009 Sunday. Have my school stuff packed and my uniform iron.

Went out from my house at 11am in the morning. School start at 1100 – 1700hrs.Today at school, it was slightly stress. Things start to get pressure as the date line to pass in the case studies draws near. The date line would be on the 6th of February 2009. Me, Dominick and Teng feng crack our brains just to complete our work. Next week also, I got a phase test. So many things I need to do. Revision, do my notes and some touch up with my Packet Tracer. Arhhhhhh!!!!!

During Sports and wellness, had a test. Took about ½ an hour to complete it. After that, our instructor let us go early. Time was around 1500hrs. Had lunch with Dominick and Teng Feng. Suppose to have revision after that but we were too lazy to do revision after we had a heavy meal.

About me and my girlfriend situation, it’s normal again. Had a chat with her for a while before she goes for her exam.

( Good Luck Sayang… Remember to stay focus and stay calm. Just do your best. No matter what, I’m always here to support you. I Love You so Much!! I Miss You Dearly)

Promise her to pick her up after school and have dinner with me but there was a change of plan. My dad decides to take the whole family out for dinner to have a birthday feast. Later that evening, some how, it was cancel. The whole family will be celebrating my dad’s birthday on the 1st February 2009 Sunday. The plan was to have lunch at swensen’s first follow up by having the cake at home.

At Night around 2100hrs, there I was typing my way on this blog. Have a chat with my Sayang but eventually, we had a quarrel again. Kind of upset about the whole thing but different people has their own views. So, I won’t say much about it.

Sayang, I’m Sorry if I were too harsh on you. Sometimes it’s hard to understand people situation. Life is getting complicated these days. What I’m going through now may cause unnecessary argument but I need you to understand and bear with me for a while. There are times I really really need you by my side when at times I’m down but I do also understand that you have projects and exams coming up. Sometimes, it’s hard for me to express it out to you. I don’t want your studies to be affected because of me. So, don’t worry too much sayang… just take care of yourself. Ill guide you all the way. No matter what happen, I Always Love you… That will never change.

Lu Ayy Darussalam

Your Favourite Picture Of All me. : )

I Love You Sayang. That Will Never Change

My 2nd Post Done By Your Beloved BF ; )

It's been quite a while. The last time I ever type out my post was last year. Even that also, it was my very first post on this blog. Hehe … hehe … Well, all this time, my girl been doing all the updating for me. I’m sure some of you took an initiative to read some of her post. Well mainly were about her school, friends or family and also some of the moments when we went out to spent time together outside.

Well, to be honest, I got a scolding by my girl today for not updating this blog again. It’s been countless of time she been nagging at me. Lately, I was busy. Tones of school project, school work, working long hours at my part time job and sleeping. Blah Blah Blah … I can go on with all my excuses. The best word to describe about my life is lazy and full of crappy reasons.

Yup!! Blogging is not my type even though it was my idea to create a blog for me and my girl. It was like a love diary. Every moment, every second is the time we cherish together but, I’m the only one who is not contributing. Ok Ok Ok … Let’s get serious. Sayang.. I’m sorry if I been a lazy boyfriend. Ill try my best to update our blog ok. Even if it’s just a post or two, one post is really considered special and meaningful you know. Hehe hehe …

Ok ok ok … Well to summaries from last year till now, that’s quite a lot to type in. Hence also, tomorrow, I’m working at 9am. Time now is already 0140am. I should be sleeping right now. Ill make it fast. Hmm where should I begin? Well, like what an old folks usually says, if you stuck, best is you restart fresh and try all over again.

Well, it’s been 6 month plus I been with my dearly beloved girlfriend. She is the best thing ever happen in my life. It’s been peace to my soul. Life’s been great, full of happiness and joy. We spent our time close; we share our problems, we cry or joke around and also face difficult obstacles together. Even though there are times we quarrel, deep in our hearts, we still love each other. It’s funny if I were to think back time when I first get to know her. Thanks To IT inovation, our destiny reunites us. Well that’s all for today. I’m very sleepy right now. Perhaps next time when I’m free, ill add in more post.

By the way sayang, I know u been busy lately. Please do take care of yourself. Have your regular meal and early sleep. I don’t want you to fall sick when your exam comes. Ill wait for you. Seriously, it’s been lonely without you at my very own sight. It’s been a long time since the last time we spent our time together. Well don’t worry about me sayang. Ill wait for you. Good Night Sayang. Sweet Dreams. Muak!!

~ Lu Ayy Darussalam ( 2008 ) ~

A drawing which resembles of me. Drawn by Nur Fazilah

Drawn on the : 5th August 2008

Note: I Love You Sayang. That, will never change. It will remain forever and ever in my heart.

1,2 - 1 2 3 4

give me more lovin then i’ve ever had.

make it all better when i’m feelin sad.

tell me that i’m special even when i know i’m not.

make me feel good when i hurt so bad.

barely gettin mad, im so glad i found you.

i love bein around you.

you make it easy, as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)

theres only one thing

two do

three words

four you.

i love you.(i love you)

theres only one way

two say

those three words

and that’s what i’ll do.

i love you.(i love you)

give me more lovin from the very start.

piece me back together when i fall apart.

tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.

make me feel good when i hurt so bad.

best that i’ve had.

im so glad that i found you.

i love bein around you.

you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)

theres only one thing

two do

three words

four you.

i love you.(i love you)

theres only one way

two say

those three words

and that’s what i’ll do.

i love you.i love you(i love you)

you make it easy,

its easy as 1234

theres only one thing

two do

three words

four you

i love you (i love you)

theres only one way

two say

those three words

thats what ill do i love you (i love you)

i love you i love you.

one two three four

i love you.(iloveyou)

i love you(i love you)

Plain White T's - 1 2 3 4

Been listening to this song again and again.

I love it.

Its exactly what i want to say to Lu Ayy.

Im sorry im quite neglecting us.

I know u understand how i am right now.

That makes me love you even more.

Can't wait to destroy Nana's kitchen tomorrow.

-gf

Did this last night.

Something's wrong with Photoshop's brush.

Turned out alright?

Anyhow.

In Library right now.

Its been almost 4 hours.

Must finish MS access & .java

Had to cancel date with Bf.

Haven't been spending quality time with him.

The last time i had a good chat with him was,

can't remember when.

Late night phone calls.

Always one of us is tired.

So, had to hang up.

But Bf, i'll meet u up soon.

Bear with me for these few weeks.

I need to get myself through exams,

and im with you.

Wow.

Butt hurts.

My plans for upcoming weeks.

Sat - Over @ Nana's.

Night - revision for Database Fundamentals.

Sun - Family.

Night - revision for Database Fundamentals.

Mon - Over @ Nana's. (0_0)!!

Night - revision for Database Fundamentals.

Tue -

whole day of DATABASE FUNDAMENTALS!

when will i see Love again?

"i miss you sayang."

-gf

i love this song.
my ultimate favourite song by MUSE.

Endlessly.

there's a part in me you'll never know
the only thing I'll never show

hopelessly I'll love you endlessly
hopelessly I'll give you everything
but I won't give you up
I won't let you down
and I won't leave you falling
If the moment ever comes

It's plain to see it's trying to speak
cherished dreams forever asleep

hopelessly I'll love you endlessly
hopelessly I'll give you everything
but I won't give you up
I won't let you down

and I won't leave you falling

if the moment ever comes


hopelessly I'll love you endlessly
hopelessly I'll give you everything
but I won't give you up
I won't let you down
and I won't leave you falling
but the moment never comes

i want to apologise to boyfriend.

Lately we've been playing this game called,

"Who gives the most missed calls"

*sarcasm*

Well, i've always been forgetting to switch my phone

back to ringing mode after class.

So, when Bf really needed me,

i wasn't there.

I'm sorry Sayang.

i want you to know im always here for you.

As usual, Bf always forgives me.

But it keep occuring that even i feel stupid.

i'm sorry.

and yes!

Rahmah and I are going Vietnam in March.

Well, Vietnam... erm______

at least it is something.

Still feeling bad Sya can't come along.

"try asking ur parents again ya???".

Before holiday.

Must give it my all for common tests & exams.

Promise.

A promise to no one else.

Just me.

-gf

a random thought came into my mind.


i am afraid.
to lose anything i have right now.
be it my studies,or my loved ones.

Talked to an old friend.
He asked me what was my definition of life.
i told him, in my life, i must have a purpose.
Be it the dream im chasing or even for the person i love.
If i lose my purpose, i don't see a need to live.

My studies.
Im rushing out all i could...cracking my brains...on projects.
less than 2 weeks, will be my 'Common Tests'.
then in Feb, Examinations.
eventhough its difficult, i can't stop now.
*"keep going"*

My loved ones.

My family.
always here with me.

i come home looking forward to being disturbed by Hykel's annoyance.
I'll get angry, but thats the fun part.
He'll try all his might to make me feel better.

Another "thing" which makes me wanna reach home ASAP,
is my baby niece.

Erika.
her giggles makes me laugh.

My sister.
She does most of the housework now.
Having her makes me feel i have someone to look up to.

My Beloved mum.
A very tired woman.
But, when she brings home food, for her children,i can see satisfaction in her eyes.
A whole day's of hard work, was all worth while.

My dad & BigBro.
Not always near.
But just one call away.
There when trouble comes.

Though my family isn't "together-together", we are together.

My Friends.
BFFs.
Though we don't meet up often, i know they are okay.
never will i forget the times we had & more times we'll share.
'im sorry i have to cancel dates.'
hope you'll understand.

MyFriendsAllOverThePlace.
Some are in contact,
but i see how each one of them made an impact in my life.
i hope we'll meet soon.

PolyMates.
with them for quite a while now.
Assignments, Projects... we do it all together.
i'm glad we're friends.& i hope it won't stop.
Thank u for all ur help be it in school, or all the crazy moments.

MyBoyfriend.
Lu Ayy Darussalam.he is sick lately.
it scares me.
just hearing him cough, breathing too quickly,
i feel helpless not able to help him.
but sayang.id pray u'll get well.
ASAP.
InsyaAllah.
You were there when i cried.
u came to my rescue when i felt sick.
u were my shoulder when i was crying.
thank u.
for all the love u gave me.
i love you.

this isn't the end of it.
i'll cherish what i have.
i'll embrace my future.
Hope all will be with me.

Don't leave.

-gf

am in the library right now.

140109

wasn't a good day for me.

alot in my head that i broke down.

Bf is sick.

He came by to have dinner with me.

He lost his voice.

I still can't figure out how that happened.

Along the way to central for dinner,

as Bf wanted to talk to me,

he had to write it down.

Apparently our sign language isn't good.

Seeing him just made me forget about school.

at ease.

Had laksa for dinner.

The gravy splattered here & there on his Jacket.

Sorry.

Bf ate Fishball noodles.

Ermm.

He only ate a bit of the noodles.

Too difficult to swallow.

Looking at him eat, hurts.

Every spoonful take minutes to get through his throat.

I love u syg.

Get well soon.

I have loads to do.

Help me!?

A trip to Vietnam in March.

Should i go?

Exam results coming out on 17 March 2009.

well.

i'd see how.

-gf